feel so completely distant

from some of the people in my life.i wish i could blame it all on the actual distance in miles but i don't know if that's all it is. maybe it's that it's always got to be me who reaches out and sometimes I wish it was the other person. I was so excited when i finished up my best friend's birthday gift and was going to bake her some goodies next weekend to send to her early monday morning next week. Maybe it's the fact that we've never met in person i really don't know. I do know that i'm hurting so much now and don't know how to fix it.