Beyond bummed

my phone's screen is broken and i have no way to call my best friend. i hope she isn't mad at me. I hate feeling this big distance from her, i hate worrying if she's mad if she thinks I'm ignoring her. i have no way to get to her number and even when i get a new phone I'm still going to worry, i don't now what happened to our friendship but i feel this huge divide and crack in it:( and I'm not really sure what to do about it. I got back on blog spot at her urging and i thought it would bring us closer together and i really hate doubting her sometimes maybe its because we haven't met in real life yet.